I am allowing myself to show up and be seen.
It's hard to wrap my mind around how beautifully difficult and lovely life would be if we were all more vulnerable. Genuine and real. No guilt or shame, just our true raw selves. When I was in Washington, I had the best conversations and read a truly life-altering book by Brene Brown. Ever since, I have woken each morning thinking how great it is to just be me. Although I fear the future, I am not allowing the present to crumble beneath my feet.
"So many feels. In one breath I am feeling confident, beautiful, ready, and in the next, feeling insecurities, confusion, still. We are humans and we are wired to connect. I understand why this trip has been so powerful. I feel naked- having somebody know and see every part of me. The good and bad, normal and bizarre, the smiles and tears. Now that is really special. I need to be more open at home. I know part of this takes time but I am capable of doing and giving more than I have been. Open your eyes to the sunshine and the rain, Taylor Jane. Every day new leafs are turning- I keep touching upward momentum and it is real. I'm not sure how this happens but I am becoming more 'me' everyday. Accept difficulties. Accept your feelings and emotions as they are all because that's all you have. Let's write about the tough stuff. Organize it, complain, cry- get it all out because that's how you become stronger and think more clearly in the hard times." Journal
"To believe vulnerability is weakness is to believe that feeling is weakness. To foreclose on our emotional life out of a fear that the costs will be too high is to walk away from the very thing that gives purpose and meaning to living." -Brene Brown